You are so lucky that you came to this realization at your age. I gave up pot at 30 and I feel like I've spent years trying to undo behaviors and mindsets that were the result of my weed consumption. Stupidly I picked up pot when i gave up tobacco despite knowing that it made me paranoid.So many people justify it thinking that it's plant medicine but it really messes with your mental health. Love the image of the green monster that came to you in meditation. What a gift that was.
BTW- where did you get the rainbow colored stone necklace that you're wearing? I want one. Also thanks for the reminder about the artist's way.I've never been consistent with it but you're inspiring me. Will you return to NYC at some point? Is this home base? Happy travels. Peace, Jane NYC PS You are a good writer!
Etai, i commented this on your youtube video, but id like to put it here as its been months now
that i haven’t expressed myself in a way that fulfilled my need to express.
i decided yesterday i wanted to stop smoking, i did it before and for a year+ straight, got my life together moved into my first apartment, the feelings you wrote in your breakup letter is what i felt, days were longer, gratitude and little things were genuinly elating, then life got a bit too overwhelming for me and i started again slowly, and it’s now been 5 months of smoking everyday. I was about to pick up the leftover clip from my nightstand and then i saw your instagram story and read your letter. thank you for reminding me of what i’ve known. thank you for sharing your journey and allowing someone like me, through what’s within,
make the decision to start today. If anyone is reading, the limitations we hold so deeply are personal agreements that we need to void and rethink. Journaling has really helped me understand that while weed was once the beginning of my creative, inspired path, it has now become an energy below mine, and it’s okay to outgrow and reinvent anything that exists even if it isn’t physical. I’m looking forward to finally posting on youtube again, i’m looking forward to the amount of time gained because i’m not filling it with w33d and i’m excited to inspire others as you do, to be patient and caring to themselves in times where it’s just hard to follow your heart towards what you know is for you. I’m excited to move through life again with open + raw love trust and intention. I’m proud of every single person who feels. To deeply feel whether it’s a positive or negative emotion, is a privilege in itself. I hope for everyone a life that fulfills and a heart that feels even if it’s an overwhelming amount.
Oh I needed this one today. Has this realization this year. I share a similar experience although I haven’t broken free quite yet. The NEED to do so is the loudest it’s been. Finding the discipline to reshape my relationship with mama cannabis - for her and myself <3 thank you thank you thank you!!!
This is beautiful and came at the perfect time for me. Seeing how I’ve been feeling the last few years written so beautifully is a nice reminder I’m not alone. Thank you for sharing something so beautiful and vulnerable 💗
Thank you for sharing, needed to hear this as someone who is 3 months in and has been struggling with many relapses. I am going to try Yoga Nidra for cravings.
Scale is quite important in life, and while the substance can help focus us into beautiful details or out of others, it's always a give and take. I decided to give it up for lent, so I have only been sober for less than a week, but I've been thinking that I shouldn't get back on it once lent is over. I feel like I am connecting with people so much more easily... and my meditation practice has seriously suffered since I have started smoking with high frequency, meditation became necessary, but waking up was just so difficult, and in times where I smoked in high volume as well as frequency, sessions just were not performed with the intentionality I'd like to have. I'm still having the crazier sobriety dreams, and still catching up on sleep, but in just the past few days, I've found waking up to be so easy, I can roll out of bed onto the cushion like I used to. I can rest in my experience without needing it to be amplified (I call it zoomed out most of the time).
I'm working on an album though, and spent so much time creating it, starting everything, on the green, and I think that that is beautiful, but it is most certainly not necessary. One dilemma I've been facing is that for me, creating is like driving, we're fully engaged, able to take many routes, but with some destination in mind, and we may have others along for the ride, or not, and when I've was high and driving, my form, my technique, would be perfect, because it's an easy task, and I don't want to get in trouble with the law, but now that I'm sober, I've noticed my driving being significantly worse, because I've felt like, well now that It's not illegal for me to be driving, I can relax and drive intuitively, but people from my city drive crazy, so it's just, it's not good. I have to make sure to drive and create not out of fear, but out of respect and love for each activity/craft. I know because I was the same as your pre-weed self, a clean teen, and that's when I found music and mediation. I found these things that bring me to joy in many waking moments while I was sober, but i've found my relationship to each strained from overuse, apathy, and a lack of clear communication, and so I think I can use what I have learned from the substance, but continue from now on with sobriety.
Your post has really hammered that in for me, and to see that it is behind you, after seeing and being so positively affected by your content, as a musician, meditator, and as someone who has a body(!), I have learned so much, and so I am filled with hope. Thank you
Almost three months clean. I honor the years of struggle trying to quit, which eventually brought me to a moment of clarity: it's making me feel worse, not better. I emailed you last year, one small step to imagining a different future. And here I am. Thank you for sharing your story.
You literally sum up my last 2 years with relapse include. Once you surrender to the divine creator an open your being to receive the bliss of living in the present, fully aware of your emotions and ready to climb the hill of self realization, nothing can stop you, and everything turns into a beautiful experience full of stories and wisdom. 3 months sober now, never felt this alive before. Keep transforming it and bleed up. 🎴
Etai, THANK YOU for sharing your journey! I have been consistently smoking marijuanna for the last 5 years. I have been fighting my urge to quit because I was scared of the unknown. What could I do instead of smoke? What would help me relax? I’ve been wanting to get into yoga and I save a ton of your videos on my phone. Then I go home and smoke then all the sudden I forget about yoga. Or I try to do yoga after smoking and I cannot relax. The mention of defiling this natural and sacred practice, really stuck with me. I have been inspired by your story! Phasing out one with the other is brilliant! I am so glad you came to that realization and are able to share it with many people who are in the same place you were! ❤️
Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing your story with us! It’s very inspiring, and touched me.
I used to smoke, but now i just use THC oils for my fibromyalgia. It’s helped a ton with my pain, without the high I get from smoking. Ever since I stopped smoking, i’ve been hacking up mucus and tar, and I don’t plan on ever using marijuana in a recreational way anymore- just strictly for my chronic pain. I’ve been so congested, and my body is clearing all of that out!
It left me so stagnant as well but i was in denial for the longest, i convinced myself it made me more product when in reality, I spent hours of my days rolling, grinding, and smoking weed.
Smoking causes respiratory issues, and people don’t talk about it as much as tobacco cigarettes. I’m so glad to see more and more people talk about the negative impacts of smoking marijuana. While it is medicinal, abusing it and using it constantly has negative consequences.
I hope one day i’m able to move away from THC oils and use yoga and other ways to help my pain. Unfortunately, regular medications don’t help fibromyalgia but i won’t give up! Thank you again!!
Thank you for sharing. It needs lots of courage to admit this kinda story, I'm proud of you. It's relief to hear that there is other human beings that came to understanding that it's worthy to reach the inner light after struggles of life choices. Keep shining beautiful one. (Oh, thank you btw of the book recommendation between your lines!)
Hi Etai,
You are so lucky that you came to this realization at your age. I gave up pot at 30 and I feel like I've spent years trying to undo behaviors and mindsets that were the result of my weed consumption. Stupidly I picked up pot when i gave up tobacco despite knowing that it made me paranoid.So many people justify it thinking that it's plant medicine but it really messes with your mental health. Love the image of the green monster that came to you in meditation. What a gift that was.
BTW- where did you get the rainbow colored stone necklace that you're wearing? I want one. Also thanks for the reminder about the artist's way.I've never been consistent with it but you're inspiring me. Will you return to NYC at some point? Is this home base? Happy travels. Peace, Jane NYC PS You are a good writer!
Etai, i commented this on your youtube video, but id like to put it here as its been months now
that i haven’t expressed myself in a way that fulfilled my need to express.
i decided yesterday i wanted to stop smoking, i did it before and for a year+ straight, got my life together moved into my first apartment, the feelings you wrote in your breakup letter is what i felt, days were longer, gratitude and little things were genuinly elating, then life got a bit too overwhelming for me and i started again slowly, and it’s now been 5 months of smoking everyday. I was about to pick up the leftover clip from my nightstand and then i saw your instagram story and read your letter. thank you for reminding me of what i’ve known. thank you for sharing your journey and allowing someone like me, through what’s within,
make the decision to start today. If anyone is reading, the limitations we hold so deeply are personal agreements that we need to void and rethink. Journaling has really helped me understand that while weed was once the beginning of my creative, inspired path, it has now become an energy below mine, and it’s okay to outgrow and reinvent anything that exists even if it isn’t physical. I’m looking forward to finally posting on youtube again, i’m looking forward to the amount of time gained because i’m not filling it with w33d and i’m excited to inspire others as you do, to be patient and caring to themselves in times where it’s just hard to follow your heart towards what you know is for you. I’m excited to move through life again with open + raw love trust and intention. I’m proud of every single person who feels. To deeply feel whether it’s a positive or negative emotion, is a privilege in itself. I hope for everyone a life that fulfills and a heart that feels even if it’s an overwhelming amount.
Oh I needed this one today. Has this realization this year. I share a similar experience although I haven’t broken free quite yet. The NEED to do so is the loudest it’s been. Finding the discipline to reshape my relationship with mama cannabis - for her and myself <3 thank you thank you thank you!!!
This is beautiful and came at the perfect time for me. Seeing how I’ve been feeling the last few years written so beautifully is a nice reminder I’m not alone. Thank you for sharing something so beautiful and vulnerable 💗
Thank you for sharing, needed to hear this as someone who is 3 months in and has been struggling with many relapses. I am going to try Yoga Nidra for cravings.
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This is wonderful. You must be very grateful that you came to this realisation. Your strength in being able to continue to be clean is admirable.
Needed this today! Thank you.
Scale is quite important in life, and while the substance can help focus us into beautiful details or out of others, it's always a give and take. I decided to give it up for lent, so I have only been sober for less than a week, but I've been thinking that I shouldn't get back on it once lent is over. I feel like I am connecting with people so much more easily... and my meditation practice has seriously suffered since I have started smoking with high frequency, meditation became necessary, but waking up was just so difficult, and in times where I smoked in high volume as well as frequency, sessions just were not performed with the intentionality I'd like to have. I'm still having the crazier sobriety dreams, and still catching up on sleep, but in just the past few days, I've found waking up to be so easy, I can roll out of bed onto the cushion like I used to. I can rest in my experience without needing it to be amplified (I call it zoomed out most of the time).
I'm working on an album though, and spent so much time creating it, starting everything, on the green, and I think that that is beautiful, but it is most certainly not necessary. One dilemma I've been facing is that for me, creating is like driving, we're fully engaged, able to take many routes, but with some destination in mind, and we may have others along for the ride, or not, and when I've was high and driving, my form, my technique, would be perfect, because it's an easy task, and I don't want to get in trouble with the law, but now that I'm sober, I've noticed my driving being significantly worse, because I've felt like, well now that It's not illegal for me to be driving, I can relax and drive intuitively, but people from my city drive crazy, so it's just, it's not good. I have to make sure to drive and create not out of fear, but out of respect and love for each activity/craft. I know because I was the same as your pre-weed self, a clean teen, and that's when I found music and mediation. I found these things that bring me to joy in many waking moments while I was sober, but i've found my relationship to each strained from overuse, apathy, and a lack of clear communication, and so I think I can use what I have learned from the substance, but continue from now on with sobriety.
Your post has really hammered that in for me, and to see that it is behind you, after seeing and being so positively affected by your content, as a musician, meditator, and as someone who has a body(!), I have learned so much, and so I am filled with hope. Thank you
Almost three months clean. I honor the years of struggle trying to quit, which eventually brought me to a moment of clarity: it's making me feel worse, not better. I emailed you last year, one small step to imagining a different future. And here I am. Thank you for sharing your story.
You literally sum up my last 2 years with relapse include. Once you surrender to the divine creator an open your being to receive the bliss of living in the present, fully aware of your emotions and ready to climb the hill of self realization, nothing can stop you, and everything turns into a beautiful experience full of stories and wisdom. 3 months sober now, never felt this alive before. Keep transforming it and bleed up. 🎴
I needed to hear this today, breaking up with my marijuana addiction is happening this year.
Etai, THANK YOU for sharing your journey! I have been consistently smoking marijuanna for the last 5 years. I have been fighting my urge to quit because I was scared of the unknown. What could I do instead of smoke? What would help me relax? I’ve been wanting to get into yoga and I save a ton of your videos on my phone. Then I go home and smoke then all the sudden I forget about yoga. Or I try to do yoga after smoking and I cannot relax. The mention of defiling this natural and sacred practice, really stuck with me. I have been inspired by your story! Phasing out one with the other is brilliant! I am so glad you came to that realization and are able to share it with many people who are in the same place you were! ❤️
Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing your story with us! It’s very inspiring, and touched me.
I used to smoke, but now i just use THC oils for my fibromyalgia. It’s helped a ton with my pain, without the high I get from smoking. Ever since I stopped smoking, i’ve been hacking up mucus and tar, and I don’t plan on ever using marijuana in a recreational way anymore- just strictly for my chronic pain. I’ve been so congested, and my body is clearing all of that out!
It left me so stagnant as well but i was in denial for the longest, i convinced myself it made me more product when in reality, I spent hours of my days rolling, grinding, and smoking weed.
Smoking causes respiratory issues, and people don’t talk about it as much as tobacco cigarettes. I’m so glad to see more and more people talk about the negative impacts of smoking marijuana. While it is medicinal, abusing it and using it constantly has negative consequences.
I hope one day i’m able to move away from THC oils and use yoga and other ways to help my pain. Unfortunately, regular medications don’t help fibromyalgia but i won’t give up! Thank you again!!
huge huge huge. this is what i needed
Thank you for sharing. It needs lots of courage to admit this kinda story, I'm proud of you. It's relief to hear that there is other human beings that came to understanding that it's worthy to reach the inner light after struggles of life choices. Keep shining beautiful one. (Oh, thank you btw of the book recommendation between your lines!)